Memory gaps are my therapy for recovering happy childhood memories.
In my memory, childhood did not look happy, first of all in my head came up episodes with negative events: an evil kindergarten teacher pours milk soup behind a cigar, my father cornered on peas, the school teacher punishes and me off the list as a pioneer, how I was cheated and didn’t get a lottery ticket… It was not very clear to me what to do with good “gaps in memory”, and I turned to the work of scientists. Researchers believe that both children’s and adults' memories are selective about what is stored in them, and also that childhood memories do not completely disappear from our brains. And you can get them back by looking at your childhood photos, returning to the places of childhood, finding toys from childhood, books. Liven up memories with associations.
Photography has always helped shape my perception of the world, and when I had our very modest small family photo archive in my hands, I immersed myself in shaping the history of my childhood. As I go into the dive, I intervene in archival images using materials that can be found at home and on the street: beads, threads, drawing pens, designer, flowers, buttons, sand. This is how I awaken my inner child, immerse myself in that time, explore the amount of memory, confronting familiar things. I reconstruct happy moments of everyday life.
The goal of the project is to fill the void. Returning to my memories, I fill the blanks of my story, mysteriously empty home pages and restore my integrity.